Friday, January 23, 2009

secret #3 -lots of rambling on this one..

truthfully - I have no idea where this chapter is taking me. Or am I missing something? missing the point? You see, I just live my life and what happens day to day.. well happens. Oh yes I make decisions but I don't have a need to take risks. I don't take dangerous impulsive risks. Except of course getting on the back of the Harley.. but I don't jump off ropes into rivers or dive off bridges. I don't climb up the side of rock races. Mum cautioned me strongly when I was a little girl and it has stuck. I took a risk when I was 10 and had my ears pierced. Last time I took an impulsive risk was when I was 16 and fell pregnant. The result? A son who turns 34 next month.

I have a tattoo and I have purple highlights so I am not a stranger to taking risks.

Maybe I am blessed that I am very happy & settled in my life. I don't have urges to study nor do I want a career. I don't want much at all. I want simple. Usually if I want something or want to do something then I just do it.. within reason of course.. like if I want to travel or buy a big item then of course I have to budget... but I don't think much about doing things. I plan things of course... when my journey gets tough.. i usualy go into panic mode then my strong self takes control. She organises things, she prepares, she prays, she journals. She talks to anyone who will listen. She puts one foot in front of the other, knowing that the journey will continue no matter what she does...

I would like to be more adventurous & original in my 'art'. Not worrying like I do if this piece of lace or that ribbon or flower goes 'there' or 'there' or what colour should i paint the background? Should it be stippled or just dry brushed. Decisions are what I seem to have trouble with. Not trusting my creative self. where does that come from? haven't a clue. Although that all being said.. not once do I second guess myself when designing my garden or my home... if I want to write IMAGINE on my wall then I do it...... if I want to hang teacups from my apple tree.. it's done without hesitation... ...

this chapter has confused me a little. I am not really understanding it at all.... I remember reading in Simple Abundance a week or so ago where she asked.. what is it I NEED to make me truly happy? I need a garden, peace, solitude. a clean and tidy home, time to create. essential oils. candles. a massage. connection to Earth. water. fresh organic vegetables. the ability to create fresh delicious meals. Joe. a pot of tea and homemade cake shared with friends...... I have all of this and I am grateful.

do I need to take a risk just for the sake of it? what would a creative risk be for me? I don't know.. maybe create a poem or verse on my dining room wall?

23 comments:

traveler one said...

Oh YES! Do that!! Be wild and crazy and repaint it every month!
Kim H
http://kimssoulcollagecards.blogspot.com/

Genie Sea said...

In my humble opinion, one person's risk is another person's pass time.

I haven't read this chapter yet, don't even know if I will. I am feeling alienated from this book, I am gaining more joy from the participants. :)

I think this is designed to nudge people out of their ruts or comfort zones, but a Harley riding, Garden Goddess is already the queen of risk. So... you rock. :) Hugs!

Sacred Suzie said...

Robyn, I think you're just a naturally wild and wonderful creature who doesn't know what all the fuss is about. So many people are ruled by conventions, you are free. That's a good thing!

creativehealinggoddess said...

Robyn,

I agree with the all.. your perspective on life makes me think you are on purpose and I think of your posts of your past journey has made you live in the now and I suppose when you live like that you are free.

Its about perspective is it a risk or is it life.

Tracy said...

Robyn, I think Suzie said it best. You are a Wild Woman at heart & free. What could be better than that? :)

Kavindra said...

Maybe what you get out of this chapter is a chance to identify how brave and daring you actually are.

There's no point in taking a risk just because a book tells you to, as you so wisely note.

But I see your courage everyday you wild woman ... from your open-ness, vulnerability and honesty, to your exodus to find peace with your homeland, to your complete acceptance of yourself and your rhythms, despite what others determine "worthwhile" or "risky".

You are one of my inspirations because you are so honest and so fearlessly searching always.

Plus, you do ride around on the back of a harley ...

xoxoxox

blisschick said...

Yep, I wasn't crazy about this chapter at all.

I took it in a slightly different direction: that we just need to listen to our hearts instead of our heads, which, in this culture, is something of a risk!

It seems to me that you are amazing at listening to your heart. What more could there be than that? :)

BB said...

This chapter was abit of a non-event for me too ~ but you have cheered me right up with thoughts of scribbling poetry on my dining room walls :-)

Have a fabulous week!

esk said...

Interesting blog post. And you are a risk taker - love it! :-)

What I got from this chapter is, beware of impulsive risks that can end up being negative - meaning that may harm you or others around you. The example she gave about investing your life's savings into a biz you're not sure about was a great example. There's nothing wrong with being impulsive, just "look before you leap."

I really thought this was a great chapter. Having a plan is what it's all about.

patti said...

I interpreted it in an art sense. Putting certain colours together can be a risk - it may not work out, but it may be fabulous! This is the same in life. There is so much 'delicious ambiguity' sometimes you have to go there just to see what will happen.

Caroline said...

Maybe you need a different word - like the one you used - adventurous.

Have fun being adventurous!

BelleEnchanted said...

It sounds so much to me like you're already very much living the big bold wonderful life of your dreams. When you want something or want to have something, you just do it - you're taking wonderful creative risks all the time, and they've built you such a gorgeous life!

Tanaya said...

Sometimes a "risk" is something small. It doesn't have to be big, brave or daring. Sometimes it could be as simple as introducing yourself to a stranger, risking opening up. Or perhaps a risk could be trying a new technique....for me it is more about opening myself up than it is about putting myself out there.

Whatever it means to you, it sounds like you are a true master of following your heart and boy...what more could anyone ever ask for?

Fatma said...

You are a girl after my heart because you listen to your heart and do what it tells you to. The things that make you happy are the very things that make me happy too.

Don't worry, be happy! :)

Winterwood said...

I havent even had time to read the next secret, but will do so this weekend! love your responses to the prompts/secret Q's.

intothedawn said...

Yes, YES, I hear you! Its the "decisions" that trip me up when I'm trying to be creative. I have been thinking very hard about getting a "Wreck This Journal" to teach me how to be impulsive, messy, slapdash-- to not THINK so much when creating. Maybe it would be a helpful experiment for you, too?

http://www.amazon.com/Wreck-This-Journal-Keri-Smith/dp/039953346X/ref=wl_it_dp?ie=UTF8&coliid=I1HCIJMIIOX0KQ&colid=36W9VQCG5HT13

gemma said...

I think it just means that if your heart nudges you to try something different... go ahead,take a risk, do it. It's just about your following your heart. That's what I get anyway!
:-)

Serena said...

Robyn, I haven't finished reading the chapter yet but I'm already feeling the way you do about it. I'll see how I feel when I finish it. I loved reading your 'ramble' as you put it. I see a woman who enjoys her life, resonates with nature and feels free...it can't get much better than that. Bless you!

peppylady said...

When I hearing or read something on risk taking I wonder if these people live in the real world or is complete clueless about reality.

My father in law never plan anything and glad he never did anything real all that wild it could of been earth shaking.
Well I post about my father in law who did everything at drop of pin.

Coffee is on.

Alex said...

This chapter was harder for me to read too, I did feel sometimes that I didn't get it either! The questions on the blog actually helped more...and the quotes in the margins of the book.
I guess we can't expect every chapter to "hit" us the same way :)

Lisa said...

You have grown and expanded so much over the years that I've known you, Robyn. I think you've taken so many emotional risks that it's almost commonplace to you now. You have created quite a paradise within and without so perhaps this lesson just isn't one you need at this time.

That has to feel wonderful.

m said...

I don't think the chapter was talking in terms of bungee jumping! taking creative risks in my opinion is more about listening to the 'irational' urge to write a 2000 line poem, take up photography, start making lithographs or whatever when your rational side is telling you to clean out the fridge and finish that x for someone else....

M
www.creativevoyage.co.uk

deola said...

Lovely!